Putting My Business In the Streets: So, I Fell In Love With this Guy…

So I fell in love with this guy…

OK, so I don’t really like putting my business out in the streets like this, but this time…well…I’m going to.

I met a guy y’all.  Well my parents and I have known him for years, but it feels like we just met for the first time. And although he’s been around me my whole life, I really didn’t know much about him.  It doesn’t make sense really.  I mean he was always at our house.  Sometimes, too much.  I never understood why my parents would invite him over all the time, but  they seemed to enjoy his company.  So much so, that he became like family.  Like for real, for real.  This guy practically LIVED with us! Lol

It came to a point that I figured that since he was always around, I might as well get to know him.  So I did.  I made up in my mind that I was going to get to know him.  As I began initiating conversations with him,  we started to develop an actual friendship.  It seemed like the more I talked to him, the more I WANTED to talk to him.  My parents always had good things to say about him, so I figured “why not?”

…But then it happened.  And if I be honest, I think THEY (as in my parents) set me up! Or maybe he set me up, I mean I’m not too sure anymore.  The more I got to know him, the more I felt like his coming around was more planned then just “by chance.”  Lol But by the time I figured that out, I was in too deep.  And I mean, I aint trying to make him seem thirsty…but he seemed like he was REALLY in to me.  And I aint even gone lie yall, my feelings for him beginning to grow so strongly.  But I was young, so I tried to play it chill…I would try to distance myself, forget about him and do my own thing, because I wasn’t ready to be that committed to someone.  It just seemed like too much at the time.  Plus I was young, I had plenty of time for love, commitment and all that other stuff that comes with it… Feel me?!  But even in my trying to forget him, the feelings wouldn’t go away. Shoot, he wouldn’t go away!

Everywhere I turned he was there, and it seem like everyone around me knew him & was trying to “hook us up.” Especially the adults, but I was trying to chill on that, didn’t want to get in too deep.  But I was so curious, and intrigued by him that I couldn’t stay away.  Plus, he was the ONLY guy my dad didn’t have a problem with me spending time with (now that’s another story lol).

Finally I gave in, his love was like something I’d never felt before.  And every time I thought our relationship had hit it’s highest peak, he would show me how much more he could love me. Like my best friend, he was always there when I needed him.  Late night caking, early morning caking…or what I’d rather refer to as “pieing” (but you only get that if you really know me hahaha)…but I mean whenever I gave him my attention, he took full advantage lol.

What I love the most about him is that he didn’t seem to want anything from me but my heart.  He knew that I had a history of guys coming into my life with the wrong motives…and how much it would hurt me when they either found that they couldn’t reach their goal, simply lost interest, or found someone better & would up and leave me.  But despite that and all my insecurities, when he would tell me that he wouldn’t leave, and that he would always be there for me, I believed him.  There were times NO ONE understood me but him.  Man he helped me through some rough times!  But even in that, if I be honest, sometimes I felt like he wasn’t listening, but later he would do something, even if it was the smallest thing, to show me that he was paying attention the whole time.  Man I love those moments! Lol There were even times he would help me in ways that my parents couldn’t…and to me that was strange. But it showed me that if I couldn’t depend on anyone else, I could depend on him.

Even when I was acting stupid…as we females tend to do in relationships (fellas you do too)…no matter what I did, he would never give up on me.  When I tried to leave, he wouldn’t let me go…he kept trying to get my attention to show me that he cared…that he wanted me…that he was the one…he was what I needed.

And even now, I’m STILL in love with this guy! It’s to the point now that whatever he says, I find myself trying to do it! Yall, I’m so in love! I just want to make him happy!  I don’t always understand him, but the more I spend time with him, the more I love him.  I know a lot of people my age think that’s it’s a little strange that I love him so much, but I don’t care! I just tell them, “Don’t hate! Get chu some!” Hahahaha..

So anyway yall…if you’re still reading this….and I hope that you are lol….this guy that I’ve been rambling about….the perfect chord to my melody….the brightest star in my bluest sky….the greatest tasting apples in my perfect pie….hahah ok ok ok…I’m done….He is the Lord Jesus Christ!  He is THE best love that has ever happened to me!  Throughout my short years lived so far, He has proven to be the greatest part of life.  It is worth getting to know Him & building a relationship.  And like my parents “set me up,” lol…I would like to SET YOU UP with the greatest guy ever! The only God ever…who has already proven His love through sacrifice (Jn 15:13) and is STILL willing to show you how much He loves you!

When I think about people’s resistance towards God…I cant help but think about the fact that we as humans tend to take “chances” with everything else…we give people who don’t even deserve our time, a chance at our heart…but the one that promise to be there always…we ignore.  He never promised life to be easy…but He did say that He would never leave us (Heb 13:5)….and that no matter what happens in your life…it will all work together for good if you give him your heart, love Him with everything, and follow his purpose (Rom 8:28)…

So what I’m saying is….All He wants is you to believe in Him and give Him your heart (Deut 6:5; Matt 22:37).  Once He has your heart, the rest (obedience, commitment, etc.) will fall in place…to get to know Him will be the best decision you ever make in life!

…So yea….I fell in love with a guy….and His name is Jesus Christ…and to KNOW Him is to ADORE Him!

I promise!

-Proverbs

4/8/11

ProVerbs Poetry Corner

…Sharing a piece of me that I don’t give too often….hope you enjoy it…Let me know what you think…I couldn’t figure out a title for this, so if you could give me some suggestions on a title that would be GREAT lol…Anyway…enjoy

-ProVerbs

……..

Sometimes I’m not chosen,

Sometimes they don’t see,

Blending in with the crowd,

Like sand grains among the beach,

But you pay attention,

And you always see,

What’s deeper than my surface,

As the roots beneath a tree,

And….like…those…roots…

I may not be as pretty,

Maybe not the prototype,

But you planted me strong…loved my flaws…

And found my beauty…as it is…

…precious..in your sight,

And Yet YOU call me special,

And you call me yours,

And you make all the difference underneath my present core,

You notice ME before my existence,

Still wanted ME once I came,

And even with my broken pieces,

Your pursuit still remained…

For every piece so insecure…

And every heartache so consumed

You showed me what I meant to you…

With broken flesh and open wounds…

It is you who shines through me,

It is you who sets me free,

From scarred pasts of shattered glass,

And lost confidence in between,

It is You who stole my weakness,

Poured out my cup of shame,

With fear of abandoned love repeated,

It is You who stays the same,

So you said you will never leave me,

That you’ll never go away,

And it’s funny how I believe you…

I mean COMPLETE trust in what you say…

So maybe they’ll never choose my heart,

And recognition may never be,

But in the midst of shadows…

It’s good to know…

That the creator of the universe…

…is really …diggin’…ME.

Heart’s Love,

ProVerbs

4/8/11